I needed to get out of the house, or I was afraid of what I would do
I felt ridiculous needing to stand in the car while my mother picked up my medical marijuana, i was nineteen years old, and I had a medical condition that allowed myself and others to use medical marijuana, but I could not go into the medical marijuana dispensary and purchase it. I had to let my mom purchase it for me, however to be honest, it was my anger troubles that made it necessary for myself and others to use medical marijuana. I had a lot of anxieties that showed up as anger. I could not control my emotions and I would get annoyed and many times I tried to hurt a family member or another student in school. I hadn’t been to class in nearly a year, and yet I was doing better, my mother had been homeschooling myself and others the entire time, then as long as i didn’t need to deal with everyday life, I was doing well, but not being able to go into the marijuana dispensary was putting my anxieties onto high alert, and my mom told myself and others that if I could not behave myself, she would have my dad option up my medicine. I wasn’t sure she would make myself and others stay home, but I didn’t prefer the threat. I needed to get out of the house, or I was afraid of what I would do. I knew that as long as I used my medical marijuana as prescribed, I could hang out with my friends in my home. I could go shopping and even stand down in a restaurant separate from making a spectacle of myself. I was ecstatic I could get medical marijuana, but I hated not being old enough to purchase it for myself.